Thursday, October 21, 2010

Midterm Funk

The last couple of weeks have been tough. I remember saying to Mikael at the beginning of the school year that we should plan something for October, something fun to do that breaks our routine. I knew that once the wedding afterglow wore off, we didn't have any more trips planned, and we finished decorating the house, I would need something to perk me up. But, we failed to plan anything. So, the inevitable happened - I got behind in my school work, started staring blankly out the windows for long periods of time, and generally feeling like maybe I should just drop out and open a bakery or flower shop. This happens periodically. I guess it's one of the hazards of being rather melancholic. And, it doesn't help that Mikael has started a new job and works nights, leaving me with many hours to listlessly roam the house.

In order to get out of my funk, I put my school stuff aside for two days and didn't even let myself think about any of it. No papers to grade. No articles to read. I then proceeded to bake. I made vegan chocolate chip cookies, a spinach potato quiche (with legitimately free range eggs), two loaves of oat meal/wheat bread, and a chocolate hazelnut cheesecake for my friend Jenn's birthday. I also went to Lowes and bought a bunch of perennials for our yard and mapped out how to arrange them. After doing all of this, I felt a million times better.

I've always known that I'm creative, that trying different projects and crafts and recipes makes me happy, but I hadn't realized how this might actually be something I need. I've heard people talk about having a need to create, and my response has always been similar to how I react to people who say that pot really helps them with their art - with an emphatic, "yeah, right." But, maybe I do need to be creative from time to time in order to be better prepared for all those other things I have to do - like write lame reading journals, grade an endless pile of freshman papers, read articles on rhetorical theory, and stay awake for evening classes that don't seem to go anywhere.


c. elle said...

Typo..that's why I deleted the other post.

Chocolate Hazelnut Cheesecake. Yum. I would love the recipe.

Jenn Stewart said...

Seriously, I'd cut a bitch for that cheesecake. It was AWESOME.

Thoughts from the Area Man said...

king arthur flour is the best!